I have been aware that we are experiencing change. A shift, a split, a new earth moment. I believe we are coming to the end of a time loop conjuncture. Many people that I communicate with professionally and as customers on their own journeys acknowledge and are also aware of this conjuncture. It has many names and titles. It also has many ways of being explained. (I will make this topic into an actual separate piece)

This awareness has come from my own research, work with spirit, my higher self, clairesenses, intuition, gut-senses and discernment along with many other resources that are available to all of us. I encourage you to explore this for yourself.

The reality is, in this time things on this planet are changing, both physcally and metaphysically. However for many it is a time that can not be made sense of.

There are so many uncertainties of fact, surrounded by frequencies of fear, that it is indeed difficult to know how to feel or what to expect. These are unprecedented times for sure.

I have been looking at my own journey through this life, discovering my spiritual purpose for being here, in this dimension, at this time, in the evolution of mankind and I'am very interested and dare I say it, filled with anticipation, to see how things play out, not just in the physical sense but also in the metaphysical/divine/cosmic sense.

So as prompted by spirit who has tirelessly been trying to make me aware for some time to share my inner world with you, I will begin to dose out some writings on my own observations and findings. Things I have been considering and investigating.

As our way of life becomes more challenging, I am reminded by Xavier Rudd in one of my favourite songs by him, The Letter, "You've got to bend my friend".


There is far more to this world than taught in our schools, shown in the media, or proclaimed by the church and state. Most of mankind lives in a hypnotic trance, taking to be reality what is instead a twisted simulacrum of reality, a collective dream in which values are inverted, lies are taken as truth, and tyranny is accepted as security. They enjoy their ignorance and cling tightly to the misery that gives them identity.

- Tom Montalk


Simply, I am a human that is asking questions that are not always main stream and easily conceptualised. Some times the answer or findings that I discover can be challenging to the ingrained Matrix Control System that is indeed controlling us. When we discover or become awakened to or 'see' something that challenges the way that we have always done or thought things 'should be' there is a process experienced psychologically called Dissonance.

SO WHAT IS COGNITIVE DISSONANCE? Cognitive dissonance refers to the feelings of discomfort that arise when a person’s behaviour or attitude is in conflict with the person’s values and beliefs, or when new information that is contrary to their beliefs is presented to them. People like consistency. They want the assurance that their values and beliefs have always been right. They always want to act in ways that are in line with their beliefs. When their beliefs are challenged, or when their behaviour is not aligned with their beliefs, this creates a disagreement (dissonance).

I encourage you all to look for yourself. Question what is being sold to you and question your own responses to these challenging issues. This is where the truth lies.

If you find yourself at least this far into the publication then perhaps you also are looking for answers that have led you to awakening instances and into the passage of enlightenment.


“Enlightenment is a destructive process.

It has nothing to do with becoming better or being happier.

Enlightenment is the crumbling away of untruth. It's seeing through p

the facade of pretence. It's the complete eradication

of everything we imagined to be true.”



So in the sense of being 'spiritual', and I say this lightly as the word these days is so loaded, misconstrued, assumed and un-lived (by those that use this word frequently). I will say that in its complexity Spirituality is what makes my heart space swell ( sounds a bit wanky but...) - and if I can be in service to others (STO) on my own journey then it is a beautiful thing for any spirit being to be part of.

It might appear obvious for many beautiful customers, friends and family that I must be a person who believes in spiritual things and concepts or beliefs, as after all I run a spiritual business. However that is not always the case for the people of these businesses, many are in it for the money, self gratification of ego coming across as an expert in the fields and topics of Spirituality, Metaphysics, Natural healing or Psychic/ Divine communications. This is for sure a trap for anyone whose intent is to gratify or lead their life from their own personal lack or wound that has been un-addressed, in any context. .

So back to being "spiritual". lol

The answer is, at least for me a daily intentional experience of awakening. When I say awakening I mean a journey through the dissolving of societal constructs and beliefs, through many repeating patterns of destructive behaviour until the lesson is, not only, firstly seen but then honestly investigated. It's looking at what triggers me and what does that mean for my personal growth. What's in my shadow that is uncomfortable to look at inside ME.

Its learning to own oneself. Know oneself through all the loosh that is out there to wade through. Its a discovery of seeing oneself and the not-so-positive aspects within us and then learning to love ourselves through the guilt or shame the ego wants to remind/torture us with. It is silencing the inner critic and loving the true self, the higher self that is leading us towards ourself, for an ever evolving, more conscious existence.

It is not so much a seeking anymore but a knowing.

There are many things happening in this world, many aspects of the physical and non-physical. So many new questions arising in the minds of man as the veil of security and trust in the system begins its slow crumbling, at least in the inner thoughts of people as they begin to weigh up what they feel against what they have been programmed to think and accept. A lot of the time without question.

Since the fires and the now the current climate of viral fear ( microbial/ bio warfare) people are asking questions about the outer world and the unfairness/inequality of resources/lack of support etc. all this external focus on what is not working in our society and what it all could mean. With all the fear and the anxiety that is seeping through us like an invisible virus itself, if we notice what our minds are thinking, how our actions are playing out and what affect they are having on others and ourselves, then by scanning over the body somatically and breathing out purposefully anything that does not belong, we have a real possibility to better handle these changes as they occur.

Lastly this "pandemic" is not the end of the world. (in the literal sense) but undoubtedly the world will be different to what it was. It may be appearing all doom and gloom on the surface, but as creative human beings we are able to adapt so incredibly well. We can be part of flipping the vibration of the energy that we instigate and perpetuate.

We can experience an outcome that is enriching and beneficial. We are heading towards a major 'reality' change and will continue to see/experience many catalyst type events/moments that will give us the opportunity to awaken to truth and be part of changing the reality around our own environments and beyond.

We may not know where all this is leading to, or even how the world will look. However, fantastically we could use all this as an opportunity to see whats going on inside ourselves, lead ourselves to our own inner world.

On a practical level we can go within, learn to stay still, educate ourselve, create, spend time with our families. On a spiritual level be kind, bring fulfilment and joy into your lives and in doing so enjoy the process of raising the level of your own consciousness.

Signing out with love

Nicki May.

References and resources.

Adyashanti: Book- The end of your world

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